Who am I?

Of course, this will be an introduction post, probably more formal then funny.. Sorry! I am a stay at home mom (I use the term"stay at home" term very loosely) to two amazing children! They are absolutely the best things that have ever happened to me. They bring more joy and love to my life than I ever thought possible! I am lucky enough to have a wonderful husband who works extra hard to provide us with what we need, and most of the time the things we want, while I get to spend lots of time with the kiddos... Of course as I write this I realize you are thinking. Get real, isn't nice that her life is so great.. Well it's not. I just want to make sure that I express my grattitude before getting too honest.

Earlier today while talking to an old friend on the phone, while unballing crusty sucks in front of the washing machine, I was asked if I was happy with my life... That question took me back a second, I had to think about it. I mean have I real thoguht about if m life actually made me happy? I know it makes me busy, stressed, loved, concerned, angry, sad, and so many other things, but happy? I wouldn't change it for anything... I have so many great things... but happy... After lots of grunting a somewhat answer, I stopped, and realized that yes, I am happy in my life.. Thank God!

As stated earlier, at least I think I stated it, my children are my life! Sweet Face is 5 years old. He has a speech/language disorder. He is in Kindergarten with seven other kids with the same problem. Some stemming from Autism, or Mr but all the same disorder. Sweet Face as of today, only has the diagnosis of Speech/ language disorder. We searched for years for more answers and that's all we ever end up with. But don't worry we (and by we, I mean me) are still searching! But dumb he is not. This disorder doesn't get in his way that much. Sweet face is so smart that he has taught himself a special way to learn things that completely works for him! Upon meeting him, the language disorder doesn't even seem like an issue, because he is the kindest, most loveing child in the world. He is generous and empathetic. Sometimes I think he can actually feel others emotions. He super cool, and loads of fun. He tells great stories, and when he smiles his eyes have a crazy sparkle, that I am sure could make anyone smile. His amazingness is infectious!

Now Peanut on the other hand, is the smartest kid I have EVER seen, and I have aided in raising many a child! She is scarey smart. She is not far from outsmarting me, for sure, and has already outsmarted her dad, Not As Good! But on top of being crazy smart, she beaustiful, silly, and really funny,. She has an amazing sense of humor! But she is a diva, and lots of times other kids don't want to play with her, but she is more sensiitive than she gets credit for. She is loving, and has one of the biggest hearts... She falls in second only to her Aunt, my sister Bear! Hopefully, it doesn't get her in trouble!

I have many great people in my life, but more people who bring too much drama, but yes, I am happy about my life. And I truly believe that without God, I would have nothing! So as an introduction of myslef, I didn't really give you anything, but a description of my life, but I think after a few more entries, it will become very clear who I am , or atleast the kind of person I am!

I really hope reading this is as enjoyable as writing it will be! Thanks so much for taking a little time to start!

Back again

Back to blogging, or so it may seem. I have come to a point where I am almost completely satisfied with my personal life. I ahve this great husband and two amazing kids and the most adorable little sister inlaw. In the past year I have made some pretty amazing and lucky discoveries. A twenty four year old cousin I never knew existed, found on facebook, and I got to be the person to introduce her to her father for the first time. I have gotten to dee two babies be born into this world, a beautiful treat. I particapated and planned a wedding for my wonderful niece. And more recently discovered a sister I didn't know I had.

I find myself regretting not taking these moments and savoring them. I rushed through to fast, just trying to get them over with. Not appreciating how unique and great they were, and that I was lucky enough to be a part of.

Last night my (not so) baby boy lost his first baby tooth. I was proud and excited and called everyone we knew that would be awake to tell them the news. We put it in an envelope addressed to the tooth fairy, just in case she wasn't sure if it was for her. As layed on Greg's chest I suddenly felt a gush of melencholy. Noah is growing up so fast. Just since May we have had preschool graduation, Kindergarten registration, baseball, hockey, loss of first tooth, and so many more. I feel like I lossed the last five years.

It is said that when looking back on our lives it isn't the cleanliness of the home or the value of posessions that is regretted, but moments lossed with loved ones and children. Not taking the time to appreciate the now. While the last five, seven, ten years were happening, I thought I was truley enjoying each moment, but looking back I have realized just how much time was lost due to self loathing and complaining and just not holding on to each individual moment.

Is there time to make up for it now? Can we get those missing pieces of ourselves back? I'm not sure. I am not even sure how to really take in a memory, how to hold onto it! What I do know is that, I am going to start taking more time out for hugs, and kisses. I am going to turn the T.V. off and the radio up and dance more often. I want to go outside on all of the nice days, even if the house is a mess. I'm going to take my time and look around. I am going to capture every moment I can. I will take more photos, and smile and laugh more. I want to really LIVE. I want to do the things I always wanted to do. I want to look back on my life and have very few regrets. I want to be able to tell stories and give great advice to my grandkids, because I did it that way, not because the way I lived didn't work! I have never been so excited!

Life

Monday morning I drive my little man to school, meet up with my fantastic friend Fawn at the mall, and go shopping for an outfit for a wedding this weekend. After two hours of searching and trying things on, which I hate, we finally found something. Then we bought the cutest shoes and necklace to go with the dress... I get in my car, pick Noah up from school and start driving. Because it was so beautiful Monday I told Noah we could go to the park for an hour, so I turn onto Duffy Rd. As I wait at the stop light beside Walgreens I remember thinking how lucky I am to have such a nice life. Though things rarely ever go my way I do have some pretty amazing things. The light turns green and I start to make a left hand turn and I hear "chug, chug, chug, chug, chug" I panic and pull over in the verizon parking lot, open my car door, and see that my tire is completely flat!
Of course I shut my cell phone off and didn't have any change... Even if there was a pay phone anywhere. So instead of being the emotional mess I usually am, I packed up the things I needed, pulled out the stroller, and got the kids ready for the walk of there lives. Noah cried for fifteen minutes because we were leaving the car and he didn't understand why... I then had to carry him on my back as I pushed Mylee's stroller. Then while I am behind Rey Azteca, a mexican man starts following me and yelling things at me in Spanish... I finally get to the crossing of New Castle and Noah tries to stop in the middle of the road. Paniced I yell at him and only make matters worse. For you who knoe Noah you know that he is very sensitive and yelling isn't the way to get him to do anything. He just shuts down. So I had to drag him on my leg while trying to run across New Castle St. We finally make it and after a lengthy hug, Noah and I had made amends and walked to Greg's grandma's apartment which conveniantly located across the street from Alameda Park. Of course she's not home so we go to the park and play. I call Greg using my debit card, and tell him what is going on. We play for two hours and decide to see if Greg's grandma is home yet. She's not so we sit down for minute at the bus stop, and a bus comes... SO we get on it. GOd sends you help, you take it. So we are half way there and Noah starts squirming. He has to go to the potty. The squirming gets worse and he is almost in tears. IAs I , and the rest of the patrons on the bus comfort and route Noah on to keep holding, Mylee is trying to climb my face and screaming! Wonderful. So we get to the bus station and run to the bathroom and NOah gets sweet relief. I chechk the bus schedule to see what time the next bus comes, and we have to wait a half of an hour.... Wjhat am I going to do with a four year old and a one year old for a half of an hour, so we decide to walk home...Yes that means walking up Cebter Ave. hill... YIKES! Because Noah does so well, I decide to reward him with a donut, and we start up the hill. The whole way up, he's crying, "I'm tired Mom MOM" "Please hugg-ed me" "please Mom mom" SO we finally get to the top of the hillafter abou tan hour, and we see the house! VICTORY. We walk in the door, and Noah turns around and he has peed his pants! What a day!
The point of the story is during the majority of theis very long day... I tried hard to keep my cool! God was truley walk ing with us on Monday. He kept me calm, and Noah strong, So thank you Lord, for never letting me down! And for sending the bus at the right time! That was awesome!

Finally Poopie

Finally we got some poopy from Mylee.... It had been an entire week since Mylee had a bowel movement. Despite the suppository, the miralax, pedia lax and tons of plum juice and baby prunes she couldn't go. I took her to the doctor Monday morning and much to my surprise I walk in to find out Mylee and Noah's insurance has been cancelled. BEAUTIFUL!!! After a few uncontrollable tears the nurse at Dr Selvaraj's office gave me a few pointers. No apples or bananas, and Miralax for three days as well as white group juice and pear juice... Today was day three and it wasn't looking promising.. untill abou tfive o'clock, and Mylee had one of the biggest... you know what.... I have ever seen. It must have been her blockage because I haven't seen anyone poop so much. It's been diahrea city! But she is a great mood now and seems to feel so much better. Poor little girl! But thank GOD that she is feeling better! We love Miralax!! YAY!!

Poor little bummies

So Mylee has a slight comstipation problem, and by slight I mean big problem. She has these tiny, and I mean tiny little poops several times a day, (and it is never enough) then gets diaper rash, from the constant wiping. We have tried just about evrything to make her sore bum better, but everything has failed. We have put cornstarch to A & D ointment, Butt paste, all sorts of things. So I am at the store yesterday or tThursday or sometime and I was walking through the aisle at Target that has all of the Burt's Bees products. (We are slowly converting to ALL green products) And notice a diaper rash cream. Now don't get me wrong, it was pretty expensive, but I bought it anyways, (it was also on clearance) Came home and used it right away. Although her precious little tushy wasn't 100%, the next morning it looked fabulously better! And the product is all natural. AMAZING!!!! It doesn't use as much as the other creams we've used because its thicker and gives Mylee a little aroma of chamomile, which keeps me a little calmer. I'm never going back. I'll use it for life. The ingredients are: sweet almond oil, zinc oxide, beeswax, lavandin, hybrida oil, jojoba oil, chamomile flower extract, calundela flower extract, lavendar oil, tocophrel, canola oil, rosmary leaf extract, and soybean oil. It is not tested on animals, the package is made of 38% recycled plastics and can be recycled again. I beleive that it is gluten free, for any kids with celiac disease and it smells great! so if aanyone is having bottom problems I highly recommend this product... So go now, soft tushies all around!

My sister

Well I guess I didn't do it right, and I can't figure it out. I guess a career with computers is out of the queswtion. It's crazy cause my sister is amazing at computers. Well actually she is pretty much amazing at everything she does. I have never seen anyone like her. SHe can do anything and she has this way of making things happen for her. She can play any instrument. (Maybe not the violin, but I'm not sure she has tried) And she can play them well. She's artistic and creative. She sews, she can create web pages and what not. She is kind and gentle, forgiving. She's not judging. She accepts people for the way they are. In a lot of ways she is like a child. She gets angry quickly, but can let it go just as fast. She loves with all of her heart wether its practical or not. Sure she has made some mistakes but she tries hard to correct them. That's more than I can saay about a lot of people. She's an inspiration really. I mean, I can't make anything happen.
Sarah and I didn't spend alot of time getting along through out our lives. We were always too different, and I am always too judgemental. My biggest fault, I think. Honestly I don't think I ever did anything to even make her like me, and yet she forgives me and loves me time and again. We completely different. We always have been, and I guess I let that get into the way of any positive relationship sisters can have. I accept that for the most part if not all of the part that our lack of relationship os my fault. For not loveing and accepting her for who she is. For trying to change her into what I think is right. Foro not remembering that everyone is different and there are plenty of people who judge me just as harshly as I have been judging her. For only seeing her faults and not all of the amazing things about her! Its my fault! And she is amazing.
She still doesn't do things the way I think she should, but I am sure there are lots of things I do that she thinks should be different, and she is always there for me. Through thick and thin. SHe is truley a beautiful person. So here is what I ask of all of you! No matter who it is, take the time to find out a little about that person you should appreciate more. THe person you spend too much time judging and not enough loving. Learn to appreciate all of the great things about that person, and remember them every time you think something negative. You could be missing out on knowing a great person. Maybe one of the best in your life. Take a chance and open your heart, and if you know Sarah. Taske some time to learn about her. SHe might be a little different, but who isn't. I'm sure if you take the time to really get to know her, you'll be amazed as well! She's a great person, and I am lucky to know her let alone have her as a sister. I just wish it didn't take me twenty five years to figure it out! I also wisah she knew this blog existed... Maybe I'll let her in on it!

Captured by Kate

These are a few of my favorite photos That were Captured by my friend Kaytee. She came over and hung out for awhile while Noah didn't cooperate and still managed to get some good photos. She's amazingly talented and fair in price. I suggest hiring her! Hope you enjoy these as much as I have!... I hope I did this right