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You know it's so weird how there is something good to be found in every situation. I know that it is hard t find at times. Especially when something horrific is happening in the moment, but it's true. My most recent example of this is my new Great friend, Erin. You see, recently a friend of mine had informed me that another friend of mine had "supposedly" said and done some horribly crazy things about me. And out pf that situation, though I was hurt, came out something great. A really good friend.
So to you new friend, I have to say, I am really glad that I was bashed, and I really am glad that we are friends. You make me laugh daily, and your kids are so much fun! I love your family and I am so glad to be able to know all of you. Not to mention, Elijah is super cool! And he loves my kisses!
I also would like to take this time to point out that I am really corny, but my mom always raised me to make sure that the people I love know how I feel. That way God forbid something happen someday everyone know just how I felt. I try to live my life by that rule... Well all kinds of rules really, but that is one of them.
And moving on, let's talk about some other people in my life that mean alot to me... Fawn, though we are classic opposites, we still somehow work out. I don't know what I would do without you, and can barely remember my life before you. Your kids are amazing and I love Joe too. You guys inspire me to be a better family. You remind me everyday to let the little things go, and to always love my husband. I love that you can't hold a grudge. I even love that you won't let your kids get dirty, but I notice you loosening up when it comes to those things and I love that too...
Cassie... What can I say... I love that you know when to leave me alone, and when not to. You know me in and out, and its just because you are observent. You can read me like a book and I always know that you got my back. You are never afraid to tell me that I am an asshole and you always support every decision, even if you don't agree with it. You are an awesome friend, and I am lucky to have you. I love Dustin and you the kids, (Even though Delaney gets too close to Greg sometimes) I even love when Delaney gets sad because I didn't say goodbye the right way. I hope that you know, I will always be here, to help you anyway I can.... If you need me!
And I would like to make sure that I recgonize my mom. The absolute most amazing person I have ever known. Keep fighting.. I need you and can't even imagine life without you. You are my truest best friend, my absolute soul mate. I know that this life will not be the end of our journey, but I still value each moment of it. I can always count on you. No matter what. I love to be around you, you make me laugh and cry and feel good and angry and give me so much love that only a mother, best friend , sister could do. You've walked with me through every trial I have faced throughout my life, and gave the ability to come out on top. You taught me how to love, laugh, care, cry, change... so many things, You gave me faith in God and showed me what it means to be a good person. I would have been lost and am so glad I had you as a mother to guide me through life. I love you mom, and I hope you keep fighting....
I don't want to forget to mention my amazing husband and beautiful kids, but they won't read this, so I don't think it matters. I gush about them enough, I am pretty sure everyone knows how I feel!
Well if I didn't mention you don't think I don't love you. I am sure that there will be future blogs with my weirdness soon. So Erin I'm so glad we are getting to know eachother, Fawn you are fantastic and I love you, Cassie... You are the bomb, and Momma, you are the best and so amazing! I love you guys!
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"Do you realize... That you have the most beautiful face??
Do you realize... We're floating in space???
Do you realize... That happiness makes you cry???
Do you realize... That everyone... you know... someday... will die?
And instead of saying all of your goodbyes let them know you realize that time goes fast. It's hard to make the good things last. Realize the sun doesn't go down, it's just an illusion caused by the world spinning 'round.
Do you realize???
Do you realize... That everyone... you know... someday... will die?
And instead of saying all of your goodbyes let them know you realize that time goes fast. It's hard to make the good things last. Realize the sun doesn't go down, it's just an illusion caused by the world spinning 'round.
Do you realize... That you have the most beautiful face?
Do you realize???"
That's a song by the Flaming Lips... It's on my soundtrack and one of my favorite songs in the world. I think it is great!
Angel Eyes
And your class clown ways
I couldn't have dreamt you more perfect
So much love
And God's good grace
I couldn't have asked for anything better
My love for you....
There are no words
To express this awesome emotion
Just getting to know you
Makes me so lucky
My heart is over flowing
Never forget
The lessons taught
To prepare for being a man
Value each moment
And every beautiful day
That the Lord keeps blessing you with
Be happy with the love you gave
Your spirit and you brains
You'll never need for anything
If your faithful anf love with all of your heart
How did you and your number 2 become friends?
We had babies around the same time
How late did you stay up last night and why?
11:00.. I watched a movie and made a baby
What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
I'm pretty sure it was my sister
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
yes
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Fawn
To send you a myspace message?
Erin
Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine
Ever kissed anyone of opposite sex?
yes
What are you doing tomorrow?
No plans
Do you like to cuddle?
yes
What are your plans for this weekend?
playing with Erin's kids.... and hanging out with my man
Whats your hair look like today?
probably the same way it looks everyday
Did you ever lose a friend?
yes
What are you doing right now?
this survey, and eating the turnovers I just made
Ever go camping?
yes... I love it
Are you someone's best friend?
yes
Do you have a dog?
no
Do you like birds?
sort of
Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Noah following me around making stupid noises
Have you spoken to your mother today?
yes
What color is your hair?
Blonde and brown
When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
last night
Have you ever thought you liked someone, and then found out that you really didn't?
oh yes
Where were you an hour ago?
Making the kids breakfast and feeding Mylee hers
Do you have any tattoo/piercings?
yes both
Do you drink water?
yes
Do you fall for people easily?
yes
When is the next time you will see number 1 on your top friends?
In a few hours :)
What are you listening to right now?
SpongeBob Square pants
Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
not really
Are you too forgiving?
Definetly
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Maybe
Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
I pretend I don't but it really does bother me... A little bit anyway
Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up?
nope
Your ex REALLY needs you at 3am & you have a way to their house would you go?
I guess it depends on what he needed, but probably
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
It happens daily
What was the last thing you cried about?
I snuck into each kids bedrooms to hold them while they were sleeping, and I cried because they are so beautiful and amazing. Then I went to bed and watched Greg for a litlle and cried for the same reason.
How do you feel about the last person that posted this survey?
I like her
Last person you blocked on MySpace?
I don't even know how to do that
Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and your sure they won't tell anyone?
yes, Cassie...
Who did you hangout with last night?
Aubrie, becasue it was her birthday... She's such a big girl...
How many hours did you sleep last night?
about ten
Have you ever cried while in the shower?
yeah... that's my favorite place to cry
Could you go a day without eating?
yes... But who wants too
Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
yeah
Do you smoke weed regularly?
Ahh, I kicked that habit when I decided to have babies
Is there someone you want to fight?
No, I'n not a big fighter
Do you believe in true love?
yes
When was the last time you were disappointed?
I don't know.... I'm sure it wasn't that long ago.
I bounce back pretty easily
Do you miss your past?
sometimes, I miss the freedom, but I wouldn't trade what I have now for anything
What are you doing today?
Going to my mom's, laundry, baking, dishes, cleaning the kids rooms, hopefully the living room, and cooking dinner.
Then I will goof off until bed time
Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
I heard that somewhere
What is the last thing you thought about?
money, Noah's school, Mylee's laugh, Erin and her kids. Paxton.. I think about a lot of things all at once... I'm very complexed
Honestly, has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
yes
Honestly, if you could go back 5 months and change something would you?
5 months... There really isn't anything to change.... Maybe I would save some money
Do you regret ever letting someone go?
That's tough... i regret the way I handled letting Dan Vavro go. He was awesome and I was sucky... Now he doesn't like me.... I regret that...
Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
Yep... lots
Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?
no... not really....
Do you know anyone in the military currently?
I do
Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
oh yeah
What is the last thing you put into your mouth?
cherry turn over
Do you believe ex's can be friends?
yes, sometimes
Do you regret doing anything this past week?
no
Another night
Another day
Waking to the same old face
No regrets
Tomorrow's gone
My love for you
Still lingers on
Forever and Always
I'll want you near
My life is for you
Should be so clear
You won't need to want
Sower you
With all of my heart
God has blessed us
That much we know
Say you'll stay
Because I will never go!
That's one of the first poems I have written since Noah was born, so I am really rusty, but what can I say, I felt a little inspired. Hopefully it's not too awful...
